Shafted Again!!
Thursday, July 31, 2003:
YAY FOR RAINY MORNINGS!!!!!!!
Anyway, now that that is out...today was much much better. Also i apologize greatly for the last post...it sucked to post and i'm sure it sucked to read. But today was much better. When I woke up my whole house was dark, i'm the last one to wake up in the morning and the rest of the family is gone before i even wake up so....they turn all of the lights off before they leave.....not wasting energy...blah blah blah........usually the lights being off isn't a problem because it's already bright outside so lights aren't really needed......HOWEVER! this morning it was all rainy and crappy and grey.......so it was still dark in my house! I love those kind of days....when the weather is a reflection of how you're feeling. It's freakin awesome. That is all i have for you....
16 DAYS and counting until THE audition.........think of me....please..
Adeiu..
Sam // 6:47 PM
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Tuesday, July 29, 2003:
Welcome back my friends to the show that never ends...
Ok, well i suppose i should apologize for the way i was acting in my previous posting. But seriously, things have kind been dull lately. IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO LISTEN TO SOME RANTING...STOP READING THIS NOW! They haven't totally sucked i mean i've had some great times...such as Joe just coming over on a whim and us watching "Donnie Darko" and throwing back some Jones'...but then there are the times when people reminisce about the "good" times. I am starting to realize more and more that i'm not involved with these so called good times. It just seems like my mind has been running in slow motion. At times i'm trying to savor every bit of my time with the people i call my friends before we all go our separate ways...but then there are times, when i'm sitting at home doing nothing...and my mind starts to wander. Now the fact that i listen to sappy reflective music and love songs all the time doesn't help....it just heightens my state of mind. Well anyway, when my mind wanders...i think of all of the good times i was a part of.....and then i start comparing them to the ones that are being had now...and sadly...all of our recent good times seem very cheap in the shadow of the old times. I find myself asking "Why do all of the new "great memories" involve alcohol or a huge party?" I guess i just miss my friends. I mean what does it say about you when your best friends are starting to grate on your nerves...? I guess i'm changing and the changing scenery is fucking with my mind and with my emotions. I think what i really need is to have a good cry. Because seriously, i do feel like an observer. I feel like i'm standing back, watching my friends live it up and have the summer of their lives from afar, and then only hearing about it from a disproportional viewpoint. I miss the intimacy of a tight-knit group of friends......more like the reality factor i suppose. Things used to be real and honest, and any more.....things have become cheap, false fronts and plastic coatings on true emotions; becuase god forbid any of us show true, raw emotion that might upset someone else. I understand trying to keep the proverbial peace until we all separate so that we may part of a good note, but why must we sacrifice our feelings and turn ourselves into zombies along the way?......
I don't know ........i'm ranting and raving to the blog.........that's becuase all of my friends have their away messages up......anyways i don't know what i'm talking about....or if it makes sense........all i know is my emotions.....and hell i don't understand them most of the time.....
keep it real
Sam // 11:03 PM
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Hello everyone....
I'm going to tell you this will be short and mostly uninformative...and probably a big energy killer and happiness massacre. Today sucked. I hate preschoolers.....they fucking suck. Today after work i just wanted to cry. Anyways i get home and sit down and start reading blogs of my friends'. Well between reading everyone else's blog and hearing stories about everything...i feel like I am an observer. I sit back and watch everyone else have fun...(or hear about it afterwards, which is usually the case) and then listen to them go on and on and on......over and fucking over again. So i've decided...any of the people that i run with..if you're reading this...if i wasn't there...don't fucking talk to me about it...because i really don't care. Sorry to complain, but after today i feel like i'm entitled to a little bit of bitchery.
fin.
Sam // 7:02 PM
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Sunday, July 27, 2003:
Alrighty....well the nails are dry and the stomach is full of good food. Actually by this time..it might have already moved into my small intestine. Who knows? I never took Human Phys. so i really don't know. So yeah at Kobe tonight Sean caught 4 shrimp in his mouth....in a row....like really fast one after the other too...it was pretty impressive.
After that i get a call from my good friend Adam. Well he says people are chillin at Mike's apartment, so i go...and i let him drive (thinking that having a passenger would be incentive for him NOT to get smashed)....hahaha wrong. Well so yeah, we're hanging out at Mike's and i'm meeting a whole bunch of new people, including Carlos BudLight...interesting fellow. All in all it wasn't a terrible experience, except that i was cleaning bitch, mostly because i was the only one sober enough to clean up spilled purple drink mix with Oxyclean. Man, that stuff amazes me every time. Billy Mays is awesome.....he doesn't lie about the cleaning power of Oxygen! So yeah i did that because I felt sorry for Matt.
Overall, tonight was....and experience. One that will be imprinted in my memory for some time to come. Probably not forever, but at least until it is forced out by something more worthy of it's place. I learned a lot about people in large groups. I learned that before the alcohol arrives people are timid, and unfortunately, liquor changes all of that. I learned that mexicans are very hard to understand, and even harder to understand when they are drunk and speaking through the slur. I learned that friends, no matter how you try to persuade them not to, will always hit the beer bong at least once......probably twice. And lastly i learned that wearing a black tshirt with the sleeves rolled up twice to a drinking party makes you look like a bouncer....and i can make easy money.......i guess that lesson can be simplified to....cheat and steal from drunk people..!
Take these pearls that I have given you and carry them with you until you see fit. That is all I have to offer. I leave you with this.......
"Please be careful with me,
I'm sensitive
and i'd like
to stay that way."
~out~
Sam // 12:13 AM
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Saturday, July 26, 2003:
hello again for the second time today....i'm going to apologize in advance for the lack of capital letters. i just painted my nails....and i'm drying....pressing the shift key with my pinky would screw them up. anyways....i'm really bored and i'm a little pissed, i was gonna go get my ear pierced again and then when my brother called the piercing place they said that the piercer had left for the day.......so shit. i think i'll manage to get over it. so i guess i'll wait until monday to punch more holes in my head. if anyone knows of anything goin on tonight let me know....i must dine with the family due to the fact that sean is 15 today so yeah....kobe steakhouse here we come. peace everyone.
Sam // 6:05 PM
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Wow ok....so i haven't posted since tuesday oh well. The week flew by. And now it's Saturday...it's Sean's birthday...he's 15 yay! Anyways i think i'll take him out to lunch or something...who knows. So i got my pictures back from water day at work and they are awesome. I love all of my babies in their cute little swim suits. They rock! There were also a few random pictures midway through the roll...and the funniest one is of Pat and JP while JP was driving...Pat has the big goofy grin on...which i love...and JP is trying to look like a hard ass......and it makes me giggle. Anyways.....that's all i've got for you now.....sorry i know it kinda sucked but i think you'll all survive.
Until...
Sam // 10:21 AM
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Tuesday, July 22, 2003:
Ok so today was really good. This is new for me...seeing as i will have good days and then something will go to shit and ruin it........so today was a diamond in the rough...meaning it started like it could go really bad, but it didn't! yay! Anyways, i don't know why today was a such a good day but it was. I think it had a lot to do with my good mood, which is also a rareity. Work was great...and i DIDN"T get puked on! Double YAY! So right now i'm listening to the Flashdance soundtrack........."what a feeling" great song...makes me think of the craptastic swing choir show from two years ago...oh good times...NOT REALLY!
So right now it's 8:15...and i feel like getting in the tub....the bathtub not the hot tub.....but the whirlpool bathtub...turning on the jets....and finishing my book.....who knows if that will really happen, but it's worth trying i suppose.....
My parting advice to all of you is a little something i learned in Girl Scouts...it goes a little something like this..."make new friends, but keep the old, one is silver, the other's gold"....words of wisdom from a Brownie (the scout rank not the snack food)
Time to tub.....i might post later who knows......
Sam // 8:27 PM
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Evening to all of you...
I'm dead tired so this will be short........sorry for the lame ass post last time but i'm tired and it's getting late....at least for those of us in the working world. So today at work was an experience to say the least. There is one baby in my room who always waits until i pick him up to spit up....so that it all conveniently lands on me.....mmmmmmm regurgitated formula! Anyways, usually he just spits up a tiny bit and it's no big deal. Well my friends, today that was NOT the case...no no...today London (the baby) decided he would wait for me to pick him up. Upon picking up the child he proceeded to hurl ALL OVER MY PANTS........and i'm talking everything in the kid's stomach, not just a bit of spit up. It was so bad that when i went to the bathroom an hour later, I had minor burns on my thighs from where his puke had soaked through my pants...stomach acid is a bitch......and it burns...... And of course after he pukes all over me he just smiles and giggles like i should be proud of his purged goodness. Oh babies, i love em...
Anyways...when i got home....and got changed i went to Miss Molly's house. There we enjoyed some delicious salmon patties, cooked up by Pat herself, yummy......then we returned a rented movie..and thugged around for a while sportin our STAN shades...HA. After that we reminisced at Molly's by watching this year's homecoming and senior videos.....good times.......then i french braided her hair and now i am home.......good story huh kids...
sleep.........zzzzzzzzz
Sam // 12:05 AM
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Sunday, July 20, 2003:
Hello everyone!
This past day has been an interesting one....last night i got bored and we had a bunch of left over food from my mom's party so...i had some people over...and by some i think it was like 15 or so...people ended up all over my house but who cares it was a good time. I got to catch up with KK and we hung out in the hot tub for like 2 hours...due to overheating we exited shortly after that. Over all it was an enjoyable experience. It was nice to be able to just chill and let people do their own thing without having to worry about if people were gonna start shit or not. In fact, certain people were not invited just for that reason! Sometimes i just love being a vindictive bitch. Anyways, it was fun!
So after a ton of people left it was just me, KK, davey, and my brother (he was being cool so it didn't matter)...so we watched Legally Blonde, KK had never seen it apparently so that was all good...turns out those guys left at 3:30 AM!!! I managed to drag my sorry ass to bed only to wake up to my screaming alarm clock at 7:15...because i had to work...SUCK BALLS!
After work i got my fake nails taken off (which i've had on since April of 2002)....sad day....so i'm now learning how to type again...suck
Well that's all i've got for you guys...i must go practice Husker Band muzak....grrrrrr...
Adios!
Sam // 2:17 PM
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Friday, July 18, 2003:
Tonight blows...
So yeah i get off work today and i figure i'd be doing something tonight....well obviously not! Seeing as how it is 9:30 and i'm sitting at home posting instead of out doing something...i think it only solidifies the fact that i have become a loser...
So rather than being out partying...i'm sitting at home....but NO it's not the usual night at home...my mother is having a LUAU! It's for all of the people she works with, so i sat in the basement for about and hour discussing the finer points of getting drunk with my mom's boss.....Oooo fun!
Sorry i'm so bitchy........i'm just bored and tired of sitting an doing nothing
Until...
Sam // 9:41 PM
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JOLLY-O MATE!
Anyways...today was a good day. Work was great, minus the fact that i got puked on but it wasn't that bad just some baby spit-up actually. After work i went with my dear friend Molly, a damn sexy redhead, to Jessica's house. Jessica is this awesome girl who works with me and Molly...she is awesome...very neat girl. Anyway we went over to her house and hung out there most of the night. I had an interesting time and I met a bunch of Millard South cats, most of which were cool; but as always there must be the occasional douche bag. Overall and enjoyable experience!
Sorry kiddos, but that's all i've got for tonight...I must beat collapse puzzle mode...anyone who was at molly's house that night knows what i'm talking about
Check y'all later
Sam // 12:13 AM
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Thursday, July 17, 2003:
HOLY TIRED BATMAN!!!
Wow! So I'm incredibly tired tonight and i have no idea why...let's examine the possiblities. #1. I worked all day. Now usually this wouldn't tire me, but today i went in tired and came out exhausted. #2. I've stayed up until 1:30-2 every night for the past week, usually this would harm me either; however i think the combination ofthe two is slowly killing me. Suck ass.
I did a whole lot of nothing tonight and absolutely loved it. I sat around and did this lame ass observation analysis and staff evaluation for work, which sucked like a vaccuum. Then adam called me at like 10. We hung out and rented "Analyze That" it wasn't too unbearable, it wasn't particularly great, but entertaining nonetheless.
I'm a little pissed about the fact that I will NOT be partaking in the swimming activities tomorrow at Mahoney. Some people can't go because they're working, and i woud be one of them...but since i work until 6, chances are I won't go at all...not even late.
So...on top of being tired as all hell and having no free time...i STILL have to learn my UNL music. Me=screwed! Maybe i'll sleep with the music under my pillow while listening to my cd with the songs on it...and maybe i'll learn by osmosis...HEY it could happen?...
Well today kiddies we have learned that SLEEP is essential, because sleep deprivation sucks BALLS! So i wish thee all sweet dreams, for i will be dreaming of Captain Jack Sparrow (or for those who are unschooled in the ways of "Pirates of the Caribbean") dirty, piratey, Johnny Depp....and by dirty and piratey i mean in the good, sexy sort of way...
Till then...
Sam // 12:52 AM
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Tuesday, July 15, 2003:
Hello again and welcome to another installment of a program i like to call "Screwy Employers!" Sorry but seriously, I woke up this morning at the usual time for me for work which is 8:45, I got in the shower, got ready to go, and went into work...and a half hour later here I am back at home! Oh but wait...there's more! I don't get the whole day off...I have top go in at 3! Isn't that great?
Sorry for the bitterness...I'm really in a fine mood! That's all that I've got for you right now...I'm sure there will be more later!
Enjoy the sunny afternoon!
Sam // 11:23 AM
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Sunday, July 13, 2003:
Christ on a crutch! Seeing as how I have not updated this since oh let's see February 16th......i feel bad about it. But i do have a valid reason! School was in full swing, but now I am a graduate! Yay! ooooh aaaaaaaah! Can't you feel the excitement?!? Anyway, all I do now is work...10-6 everyday! With children nonetheless. So of course that equals fun, me getting to relive my childhood through the f**ked up lives of the kids i teach. I just love the fact that i have 8 kids in my room and 3 of them come from "broken" homes. They are only three years old and the world has already shit on them multiple times. My heart goes out to them...and then i am so graciously reminded of how bratty they are because of it. Anyway, i really do love my job. It's a great way to make money, I mean i get to play all day!
Oh let's see......what else have I been up to?....I had my birthday.....smoked a cigar, that was quite fun! Not something i would make a habit of, but definately something i could partake in once in a while. Other than that I've done nothing. I haven't taken any trips........other than a two day road trip to Rochester, Minnesota, which was needless to say quite an experience. My mom pissed me off because she wouldn't stop at the SPAM museum (which was on the route up there) all I wanted was a corny shirt! While up in MN, we shopped a whole lot and I got a bunch of new clothes for school in the fall!
Speaking of school, I registered.....SUCK! I'm taking all social science classes which are completley worthless for my major...........DAMN YOU LATE NSE DATE!!!!!!! anyway now that that whole issue is out, I can't wait to move into my dorm.......or more specifically, out of my house. I am ready for change! But i am not ready for band camp.....so if you call me and i can't come out to play...chances are i'm practicing my ass off trying to prepare for that entire ordeal.
Sorry again for abandoning you all! i do love you and you can now look forward to a more regular posting schedule.
With that i bid thee all adieu.......
Sam // 11:56 PM
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